I need a helper!!!

baru 2 weeks start kerja macam dah nak surrender..2 weeks working with 1 day MC.
hectic
damn hectic
so damn tired
pity my body, it just been forced to withstand with all this.
my daily routine start with kelam kabut bersiap ke tempat kerja, siapkan anak2, x sempat makan, kerja kerja kerja, pam susu 3-4jam sekali di ofis, balik kerja masak, uruskan anak, jadi tarzan pompuan jap sebab naik hangin dgn kerenah budak2 ni...
pas tu pengsan!

phew...

badan sangat2 letih, resulted to lose my appetite especially after work. my body weight back to normal 48kg without any slimming diet or exercise required.
the energy level drastically down once breastfeeding Aina or whenever I do the pumping-milk-activity.
I definitely need a helper, I mean a maid.but after thinking back, thousands of questions came across,
do I really need a maid?somemore I jenis tak percaya a stranger to stay in my house, taking care my children for all day long..
is she doing her job while I'm at office?dapat yang tak ok, anak ke mana, tak terurus, dia plak bergayut dengan jantan..silap2 cabut lari dgn my belongings..pastu tinggalkan anak macam tu je..no no, I just cant imagine my babies crying for few hours, hungry and fear.
the most important things that scared me if she abuse my children..so many cases reported of internal bleeding that cause to death, especially babies..
plus, there will be no more privacy in the house..x bolehla I nak berlari2 sambil nyanyi lagu Hindustan pehle tum...tum...tumm...dengan my husband..dengan pakaian rasmi kat umah, short and camisole..

all the possibilities make us think not only twice, but hundred times..

memang best kalau ade maid..rumah jadi kemas, bersih, baju berlipat, bergosok, makan tersedia..balik kerja boleh berehat..ni keluar pagi, balik dah gelap..tiba2 baru perasan ade bukit dah tumbuh dalam rumah...

ye..inilah yang dikatakan sikit2 lama2 jadi bukit..hasil basuhan 5kali dalam masa 5 hari..nak melipat baju2 kecik tu...bercinta..

cepatla Aina membesar, tolong ummi lipat baju yang mcm Bukit Fraser tu..

My husband is my best partner, he's like my left hand, in a way to help and support me. he can do whatever I can, taking care of the girls, changing diapers, buat susu, lipat kain, kemas rumah, masak..the only thing is he need me to take care Aina more than he can do..ye lah, menyusu kan..mana plak la Aina nk nyonyot nanti..terima kasih Allah..memberikan suami sebaik dia..

We can do many things, but still some mess left behind..rumah jadi x berapa kemas, baju nk dilipat membukit, messy kitchen, room, wardrobe, dirty floor..ni semua gara2 buat kerja cepat2 nak siap, tgh memasak aina nak susu atau Aqilah menangis sebab disakat Arissa...You see, I have 2 babies to take care of (18mths old also consider baby right?) and a very-active and energetic daughter that seldom having afternoon nap. ummi nak tidur siang time weekend pun susah.."sape nak jaga kakak....kakak nak tengok tv....sian kakak....."

Sekarang baru tahu betapa susahnya jadi parents, yang bekerja dan menguruskan anak tanpa bantuan maid...Kesian....