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tak sanggup letak gambar baby kena buang..

I was upset today..

Sedih, geram, marah, hiba semua bercampur baur..

Hari ni ade lagi kes buang bayi..2 hari lepas ade org jumpa mayat baby yg tgnnya digonggong anjing..sekarang ni mcm musim buang baby..ade tak kerajaan buat statistik untuk kaji masalah ni?My personal opinion la..ni semua sebab remaja sekarang terlampau bebas dengan teknologi..mak ayah pon susah nak kawal..chatting, sms, 3G, internet bukannya tak elok tapi ade yg salah gunakan..bercinta ikut nafsu, berjanji sumpah setia, pujuk rayu berjumpa di samping celebrate perayaan tak sepatutnya mcm konsert, Valentine's Day, New Year..Kesannya??10 bulan kemudian ade nyawa yang tak berdosa melayang..diorang tak sepatutnya ambik hak baby tu untuk hidup..Allah maha kuasa..semoga manusia kejam mcm tu dihukum sewajarnya, kalau tak di dunia..di akhirat nanti..

Aku ade sembang dgn hubby..tanya dia, mcm senang2 je manusia kejam ni beranak..xyah bidan, nurse ke doktor,pastu mcm tak sakit pun..mana2 pon boleh..kuar mcm tu je ke..kita yg bersalin dgn cara yg sepatutnya pun rasa berperang antara hidup dgn mati...teringat time aku bersalin dulu..mmg mcm senang, yela drive sendiri dr ofis, balik umah jap (umah kena naik tangga) time tu darah dh keluar..sampai hospital kul 1 pintu rahim dah bukak 5cm, beranak kul 4:15pm..mcm senang tapi lepas Arissa lahir aku tumpah darah..dekat 1 liter (org normal dlm 200-300ml je)..masa tu rasa nak mati pun ade..kejap badan aku menggigil, kejap panas berpeluh2..rasa berpusing2 dunia..kejap kelam kejap kabus..ape doktor cakap dengan hubby semua aku dgr..aku lawan ubat, taknak tidur sebab takut pejam selama-lamanya..aku pegang je tangan suami, mintak dia temankan..pastu aku mintak nk tgk baby, sebab time tu aku redha kalau aku dijemput Allah pun..air mata aku mengalir bila dpt tgk Arissa even tak dapat nk pegang dia..lagi sikit je nk kena masuk darah, bila finally doc Siti kata kt hubby "I think she would be alright, insyaAllah"..dont worry.."so this time around, again with Dr Siti sebab dia dh tau my historical health condition, dia cakap akan guna ubat yg kuat sikit in case berlaku tumpah darah lagi..

Berbalik soalan aku pada hubby tadi...hubby cakap time tu manusia kejam ni tak rasa sakit sgt dah sebab dlm kepala otak dia dok pikir lain..pikir mana nak buang baby ni..sakit sekejap je..tapi kalau malu org mengata seumur hidup..tak ingat dosa dan tuhan dah..betul gak kan?sakit ni kan ade kaitan dengan otak kita..otak kita boleh kontrol rasa sakit tu (kalau tak takdela org boleh cucuk lidah la, jalan atas paku la)..

Ade la topik pagi kt hot FM pasal ni..ade ke patut sorang caller tu call (mak org ni) pastu bg opinion lebih kurang mcm ni..:masalah remaja mcm ni kita susah nk control, yela zaman sekarang..tapi preventive action kita boleh buat mcm org Barat..diorang bg kondom...adoi makcik..tu kan opinion bodoh namanya..takkan nk tiru Kristian?kiranya indirectly dia menentang hukum Islam yg melarang zina ni..tapi bila ade caller yg cakap : masalah ni boleh dikurangkan melalui penekanan pengajaran Islam di peringkat sekolah..sebab agama benteng segala-galanya...terdiam terus Fafau dgn FBI tu...

Excuse me Mrs Minister of Woman and etc (si Shahrizat tu la)..sex education is not the ultimate solution..pls la buat seiring dgn ajaran agama juga..baru balance..some teenagers lagi eager to try when learned about sex education (who knows??)..

comelnya masa ni...mcm nk cubit2 je..

a little update

I'm entering my 3rd trimester (now is 27th week), where now I'm experiencing restless and jittery legs syndrome (RLS syndrome). Not to mentioned waist pain especially when tried to wake up from lying position..since this is my 2nd pregnancy, I could feel the difference already.ye la last time my body still very fresh (??)and healthy, can bear the pain and yet still active doing things. Now, plus the weight I gained which is 53kg (note that last time at this weight I was already 9 months ++)..I guess I can easily hit 58kg by the time of my EDT..gemok tu tp malas nk fikir..now I have to eat more healthy and fat-less food instead of worrying about the weight.last A&C doc said current baby weight is 700g only, normal but quite small (the baby wt should be around 2 pounds at this stage)..the placenta is at normal position, which made me relief as I worried the same thing happened (last time I experienced placenta praevia type 2), which lead me to see midwife to massage my belly at 8 months.

hai anak...betapa mengandungkanmu itu suatu pengorbanan..

jadilah anak yang soleh..

Arissa jadi kakak yang baik untuk bimbing adik2..

ikut suruhan agama..jadi pemberat amalan ummi & abah ke syurga..

ummi.

cuti-cuti

Bestnya dapat cuti....2 hari cuti ikut abah g Kuantan..abah ade kerja sebenarnya..so Arissa & ummi bersantai kat hotel..lepak dalam bilik,layan Astro Ceria dgn tagline yg Arissa suka banget.."untuk kita aje"..pastu g swimming pool...suka sgt dia dapat main air..bikini xde, so ummi pakaikan spender je..bila basah kena air dia bukak sendiri..

ummi : Arissa, pakai balik...nape bukak spender tu?tutup malu cepat,nanti org tgk..

Arissa: spender basah ummi...

ummi : ye la..basah takpe, pakai balik..

Arissa: spender baaasah ummi...

ummi : ummi tau..pakai cepat..nanti semut gigit tu...
Arissa : spender basah ummi...ummi ni...

sebab dah tau tu je yg dia akan repeat..so ummi pun biar je la dia bojel..nasib baik x ramai org, ye la bkn weekend pun.nanti la ummi mintak abah belikan bikini utk Arissa..x lama pas tu kencing kat lantai pool tu, nasib x kena kerusi santai dia..pandai plak lap dgn spender pastu g celup2 dlm pool..lap balik kencing tu..ulang alik 5, 6 kali..konon2 bersihkan la..habis tercemar air tu hikhikhik..ummi biar je sbb x larat nk larang..lgpun xde org lain pun kat situ..

layan la gambar kitorang kat tepi pantai..tgkla gaya manja si kecik ni dgn abah dia..anak abah la katakan..muka dia iras siapa ye?

mana spender tadi ye..

gaya rimau main pasir

The best birthday gift ever

I've inspired to write something (after few months kering idea) today..nothing grand, just my truly feelings on my birthday...Well, actually yesterday was my 29th birthday..I didn't get any birthday present yet and doesn't bother at all since it will be postphoned which I'm pretty sure to get it..just wait for the moment(hahaha)..

Actually I already got the most touching and precious birthday gift ever...I cried my heart that time..

When I was young (should I say school or uni-time), the birthday wishes and gifts given by my family, friends and boyfriends (is it really with 's'??)..

As getting older and numbers increased (I mean my age)..all above getting lesser..wishes come from family, close friends and boyfriend..

After married, things getting lesser..wishes come from family, very closed friends and boyfriend(my husband is still my boyfriend OK!)..

Who knows after being mother, the wish and birthday song come out from my 2-years old daughter's mouth (of course accompanied with her abah) totally touched my heart..It was the most beautiful moment in my life, hearing her sang to me..even very short while..in our room..Thanks Arissa..and abang..I love both of u so much..dont know how my world would be without you..

That was the the best birthday gift ever..

How fast time flies...

Teringat perasaan itu..

Pertama kali melihatnya..

Pertama kali mendengarnya..

Masih terasa debarannya..

Dalam gembira dan sedih dengan ikatan itu..

Pertama kali menyentuhnya..

1001 perasaan sepanjang ikatan yang terbina..

gembira, sedih,marah, terluka...

tapi yang paling penting bahagia..

bahagia menjadi seorang isteri..

bahagia menjadi seorang ummi..

bahagia menanti kelahiran kedua..

harap setiap hari menjadi kenangan manis untuk kita

sehingga waktu memisahkan..

layan gambar je la..

That's my girl..dah pandai smile bila nk snap gambar..

smile..

Fooh...foooh...nape la tak padam2 lilin ni...

Blueberry cheesecake with apricot slices

I'm not in the mood of writing...too many things to do..ni pun sebab dah lama x update blog...saje letak gambar je last 2 weeks..layan gambar je la ye..

Happy Belated Birthday sayang..

She turned 2 years last Monday (9/11/09)..happy belated birthday sayang...ummi lupa nk update dalam blog..takde celebration pun..maybe postphone ke masa yang sesuai..ummi pun baru sihat..abah pula quite bz dgn kerja dan company dinner tomorrow..so esok nenek will take care Arissa sementara ummi &abah pergi dinner.

tak sihat

Hati tak ceria..batuk berlarutan dkt seminggu..Malam sesak nafas plak..nasib baik Arissa dah OK..last week dia kena admit lagi...kali ni 4 hari kat SALAM, kena drip n pakai nebulizer..batuk+demam+flu+dehydrated..Alhamdulillah dah sembuh..kali ni ummi dan abah akan lebih jaga Arissa especially on food & water intake..make sure x masuk hospital lagi..tak sanggup tgk dia sedut kahak pakai tiub yang dijolok2 ke dalam hidung & tekak Arissa..Bila Arissa dah OK, ummi plak tak sihat..dry cough sampai payah bernafas..Harap Allah permudahkanlah kandungan kali ni..